I just looked in my wallet, and all of my cash is gone. And I know for a fact that I had money in there. Tuesday night I went to the movies, and someone gave me six dollar bills to pay me back for her ticket. I had my purse on my person all night, and after that, we came straight home. Yesterday I went to work, home, church, home. Today I was at work all day. Just three possibilities. Three places where someone went into my purse, into my wallet, and snatched all of my cash. I usually never carry cash. But I had some from babysitting and people paying me back. I only just happened to go through my wallet tonight because I need to use cash tomorrow. It's not even the money that I care about. Because money comes and goes (this time it was a time of "goes.") But it's the INVASION that I think about. Invasion of privacy. Invasion on my property. Invasion in my skin. The fact that someone touched my stuff. It gives me chills that someone could invade someone's somewhat-"safe place" and do that. Okay. Let it roll. Roll my head. Roll my shoulders. Breathe in. Breath out. Move on. I guess they needed it more than me. I wish people would just ask. Like, "Hey Kiko, can I have some money?" "Sure! Thanks for asking and not just helping yourself. :)"
After work, I had a meeting, and I am so excited to say that I am now officially apart of the teens ministry as a leader! Whoohoo! I am sooo excited! I had to wait six months, and the time has finally arrived. I cannot be more excited! Friday will be my first teen bible talk as a leader. Yay hay! Hooray! Zippadeedoodahlayhay! Get ready, because here I come!
Today was our preschool graduation. Goodbye to all you big kids. You will be missed! I sang and played my guitar before the program started. Just as some background music. And this may be a little tmi, but I was soo hot, I was dripping sweat! Gross! I notice that I always sound different when I practice. I can hear the difference in my voice when I have an audience and when it's just me singing to me. When I'm nervous, and when I have no fear. But it wasn't about me. It was all about the kids! Perfect! They were so cute. We had one girl who wouldn go up on stage with the rest of her class until the final song. Silly girl.
After such a busy day, we went to chill out at the movies. My mom, Gayle, and Asya watched Mud. While Kaleo and I watched Fast & Furious 6. Yeah, I saw it again. And it was awesome again! I cried more this time. Probably because I knew what was going to happen, and I paid more attention to their facial expressions. And I was in a bigger theater, with higher sound quality. Loved it!
Today was the first day of teacher prep week. Well actually, it was a holiday and I didn't actually have to go into work. But I didn't know that. So I went to work. And cleaned classrooms and fun stuff like that. There were a few of us teachers there. So I'm not the only crazy lady who works on a holiday! Haha. I love cleaning and organizing. I do. I do!
After work, we went to dinner at Cheesecake Factory because one of our co-workers is moving back to Florida. Boo! We miss you already! But it was tasty. And we finally got to see where she lives. Two days before she leaves it.
I really like the message at church today. So I thought I'd share some of it with you.
"Untested convictions are just good intentions." How absolutely true. You can have the best intentions and faith, but it's when you are tested and go through struggles, that the real you is revealed.
Psalm 23:1-4
"The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me."
"All sunshine and no rain makes a desert." If you only have good things happen all the time, no rain/hard times, you are going to be a dried up Christian. That doesn't sound very good to me. No sir! You can't have sunshine all the time. It takes good times and bad times to make a mature person. We have pain and joy. Victory and defeat. Successes and failures. Mountains and Valleys.
Valleys are inevitable. Valleys are unpredictable. Valleys are impartial. No one us immune. Everyone has problems. Good people and bad people. Valleys are temporary. It's not going to last forever. You won't stay there forever. There will be relief. Think of Valleys like a tunnel. It's something you have to go through to get to where you are headed on the other side. Valleys are purposeful. When your convictions are tested, you find out where your convictions are.
What do you do when you go through Valleys?
-Refuse to be discouraged
-Remember that God is with me
-Rely on God's protection and guidance
I woke up and instantly began to finish reading Boundless by Cynthia Hand. Which I did. It was the third and final novel in the Unearthly series. I am sad it's over, but I cannot contain my excitement at how much I loved it. You know, for me, it's all about the ending. And boy did I love love love that ending! I cried. Tears of sadness. Tears of joy. Oh, Tucker. Sweet sweet Tucker.
Quotes! From Hallowed and Boundless :)
"I'm having an argument with myself. And I'm losing. So not a good sign." "Death is a transition, I try to tell myself, a passing from one plane of existence to another. It's not the end of the world. That's what Mom has always told me. But I guess that depends on how you define the end of the world." "Then nothing can ever truly separate you, not even death. Love binds you." "That's the hardest part. The absence of certainty." "You learn to find your happiness, kid. You figure out those things that give your life meaning, and you hold on to them. You try to stop worrying about the stuff you can't control." "I made them go away, just by my refusal to be afraid of them. I took control of my fear. I conquered it." "Oh, what a tangled web we weave, when first we practice to deceive." "'Haven't you guessed by now?' I say, my heart hammering. 'My home is you.'"
These are the beautiful covers of the three novels.
This is the novella that comes between Hallowed and Boundless.
For our last day of school, we brought in our bounce house. Yes, our bounce house. My family got it way back when, around the time of my sixteenth birthday, I believe, and we've had it ever since. It's pretty sweet. My dad brought it to school and set it up for us. The kids were so excited watching him set it up. I think that's the most patient they've ever been. Sitting on the sidewalk in anticipation, watching my dad put it together, and blow it up. It was so much fun. Obviously, I bounced as well. I can't believe the school year it over. That sure was fast. Fed-Ex speedy. We received many goodies today as well. Baked goods, leis, gift cards, etc. I ate so many sweets I thought I'd explode! Haha. Thankfully I did not.
After work, my mom, Gayle, Asya, and I went to see Fast & Furious 6. Obviously! Oh my goodness gracious! That was sooooooo good! I'm like, I need to go see that again. Now. Way to start off the Summer movies. Epic. It was pretty epic. If you have not seen it, do so now! It's a MUST MUST MUST watch. I'm not going to say anything because I don't want to give anything away. But it was hilarious. The driving was fast, furious, and flipping amazing. The fighting was boss. Ahh, I loved it! 5 out of 5 big fat shining stars! And because I am still processing. Processing. Processing. But what I do know, and am so excited to know, is that there will definitely be a 7! I mean, hello, after the credits. Gah! Tokyo Drift!!! It all started twelve years ago, back in 2001, with The Fast and the Furious, and it has grown and grown and grown. Faster. Faster. Faster. Let's go over the timeline shall we. For the record. The Fast and the Furious - 2001. 2 Fast 2 Furious - 2003. The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift - 2006. Fast & Furious - 2009. Fast Five - 2011. Fast & Furious 6 - 2013. And for future notice, Fast & Furious 7 - 2014. More specifically, July 11, 2014!! I can't even wait! It's only a little over a year away! How speedy is that!
"You don't turn your back on family, even when they do."
I've been typing up progress reports for the past two and a half hours. My hands are getting a teensy bit cramped. My eyes feel zoning. And I don't really feel like typing anymore. Haha. But I am anyways.
We made biscuits today! Fun food prep to go with our class book, If You Give A Bear A Biscuit. It's a very cute book, and the biscuits were absolutely delicious! They were the Red Lobster biscuits. Oh yeah!
I love Demi Lovato's new album, Demi. I've been listening to one song for the past two and a half hours. So it is obviously my current song of the week. It's so catchy! I loved it the moment I first heard it. :)
The audiobook I'm listening to is The Diviners by Libba Bray. It's set in the 1920's, and I enjoy the different sayings. I've heard of the "cat's meow", the "bee's knees", but I've never heard of the "elephant's eyebrows". Haha. I love that. You're the elephant's eyebrows. Teehee. While listening, I came across a line that I really love. I don't know the exact punctuation, I'll have to get the book and see. But these are the exact words. And I adore them. "In its way, writing was like healing. A cure for the loneliness he felt. Sometimes the cure took. Other times, it didn't. But he kept trying." I'm not even half way through with it yet. It's quite long. But I really like it. It's very different than what I'm used to reading. Here's the summary from goodreads: Evie O'Neill has been exiled from her boring old hometown and shipped off to the bustling streets of New York City--and she is pos-i-toot-ly thrilled. New York is the city of speakeasies, shopping, and movie palaces! Soon enough, Evie is running with glamorous Ziegfield girls and rakish pickpockets. The only catch is Evie has to live with her Uncle Will, curator of The Museum of American Folklore, Superstition, and the Occult--also known as "The Museum of the Creepy Crawlies." When a rash of occult-based murders comes to light, Evie and her uncle are right in the thick of the investigation. And through it all, Evie has a secret: a mysterious power that could help catch the killer--if he doesn't catch her first.
I finished Persuasion by Jane Austen on my break at work today. Anne and Wentworth. Here are a few of my favorite lines:
"A man does not recover from such devotion of the heart to such a woman! He ought not; he does not." "... when pain is over, the remembrance of it often becomes a pleasure." "All the privilege I claim for my own sex (it is not a very enviable one; you need not covet it), is that of loving longest, when existence or when hope is gone." “You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. ”
After work, I went to the library, just as I do about every Tuesday. When I got home, I went on my run. Listening to an audiobook, of course. I ran into the same girl from yesterday and talked to her for a bit. She's so nice. Afterwards, I sat on the beach. Winding down. Breathing in the crisp cool evening air. Watching the subtle waves break against the sand. Peace.
The theme of the month is "Literature." So today we began writing a book as a class. It's called If You Give A Bear A Biscuit. Each student adds a line and picture to the story. It's actually quite good so far. Three year olds can be very creative. On Thursday, we are then going to make biscuits to go with our book. Fun! Today was also water play day. Kiddie pools. Sprinkler. Water tables. Watering cans. Chair scrubbing. You know, typical hot day fun!
This evening, I went for my usual walk with weights. But today I also through in a little running with the weights. I passed by a couple people I knew; my uncle who was working on the roof of his house, and an old friend from high school. She was fist pumping and saying, "Whoo hoo! Work out!" Haha.
Last night my mom and I went to the preschool. She did her graduation/accreditation work, and I did my scrapbooking. It was great fun. I love scrapbooking. Reminiscing on the memories. I surprisingly got a lot accomplished, and the cool air conditioning felt stupendous after such a hot day. We were there til after two in the morning.
Here are my scraps. Cuttings and used glue sticks I threw away at the end of the night.
Church was great, as usual. Afterwards, we went to lunch at Panda Express. Yum yum. Then we went to the movies and watched Star Trek Into Darkness, of course. I also finished another one of the many books I'm currently reading. Typical Sunday for me.
This afternoon I went walking with weights, around my neighborhood, like I always do. But it was SO HOT that I only lasted twenty minutes before I couldn't stand the heat anymore. And the water looked so cool and blue. I ran home. Got my suit on. Got my sister. And we went to the beach. I walked into the refreshing ocean, waves crashing against me, and dunked my head straight under. Sweet sweet relief flooded my body. It was so beautiful outside. Perfect really. Hot and sunny. Bright blue skies and water. White water waves. I was oh so happy. I gasped. There was a burning running across my right knee. I had been stung. Stung by a Portuguese Man O' War. I turned around and ran out of the water and towards the sand. As I spun around, my eye caught glimpse of a topless woman. What!? Yes. She had taken off her bathing suit top like it was no big deal. I thought, What's going on?! This isn't Brazil. This is America! We have laws against that. And there are little children at this beach. Crazy lady! Seriously. Come on, now. I finally go to shore as my sister exclaimed, "I'm not peeing on your leg." Thanks for nothing, Kaleo. Thanks for nothing. I just did what Amanda Bynes said to do in She's the Man. "Be a man. Rub some dirt in it." Well, I didn't have any dirt. But I did rub sand in it. Or on it rather. Ah. As I sat there, on the sand, looking out at all that blue, sun kissing my skin, wind blowing across my face, I thought, wow. I am so lucky. So blessed. To live in this beautiful, magical place, called Hawai'i. All I have to do is walk ten seconds from my home and I'm at the beach. Kind of crazy when I think about it. I get to enjoy this whenever I want to. Thanks, God. For placing me here. For allowing me to taste a little piece of Heaven. Breathe in. Breathe out. Serenity. While at the beach, my sister found an ocean-ified slipper. Crabs and other creatures attached to it. So cool. One blue crab. One brown. Of course I had to take pictures. So my sister ran home and got my phone. Pictures. After that, a couple of dirt bikers came riding past us. Again I muttered, "What's going on? This is a beach." Some people are just a little bit crazier I guess. Oh, what a day. A crazy beautiful day.
Little crabby :)
Creatures on a slipper
My sister came up with this little setup so the crabs wouldn't run away. Not that they even tried.
After showering, I realized I had a slight sunburn. No matter. Also, my hair was softer than usual. Score! Exercise Walk w/ two 5 lb weights in the hot hot sun (20 min)
Storybook Character Day! I dressed up at Minnie Mouse. Sort of. I wore a red dress, black tights, and Mickey ears. It was a fun day. After work I went over to my friend's house, and a bunch of us hung out. Talked. Prayed. Jam session (I brought my guitar, and she had mini bongo-drum-like-things.) Dinner at a Hawaiian-ish restaurant. Reminiscing on the "good old days." Disney Channel. Nickelodeon. Childhood favorites. Memories. Little wishes and dreams.
Home sweet home. Recording some music using my awesome-tastic Yeti! What a boss! I haven't used it in a while. I missed it.
Today we made chocolate chip cookies! For our Storybook Share Day tomorrow. I clock in for for work and my mom says, "Kiko, can you makes cookies or something with the kids for tomorrow's share day?" I obviously reply, "Yes!" I magically find two eggs and the recipe for Nestle Tollhouse Chocolate Chip Cookies on the back of the large package of chocolate chips we have. We had all the other ingredients. Success! So we had our second food prep of the week. Cheehoo. Pandemonium by Lauren Oliver. I told you about it yesterday. Remember? Well, I finished listening to it today while I was on my break at work. Aaaahhhhh! SPOILER ALERT!!!!!!!He's ALIVE! I knew he would be. I knew that he could not possibly have died at the end of the first book. I couldn't believe it. I wouldn't. I knew that he was alive and that he'd come back. As Pandemonium went on, and Lena and Julian started to fall for one another, even more I knew he was alive. I was like, OMG, he's going to come back at the end of the book, but Lena and Julian will be together. He will come back. I knew it would be this way. I had a gut feeling. I just knew it! And I was right. So happy, she was promising Julian they would stay together. "You and me. I promise," she said. "Don't believe her." Hardened, stony eyes. Auburn hair. Boy brought back from the dead. Alex. Gaaahhh!! I need Requiem now! I have no idea what's going to happen next. I am very VERY excited to see... "If you want something, if you take it for your own, you'll always be taking it from someone else. That's a rule too. And something must die so that others can live." -Pandemonium "That is what hatred is. It will feed you and at the same time turn you to rot. It is hard and deep and angular, a system of blockades. It is everything and total. Hatred is a high tower." -Pandemonium Exercise Walking w/ two 5 lb weights (50 min) Fine By Me - Andy Grammer ft. Colbie Caillat
It's after 11:00 PM, and my mom isn't home yet. So I called her to make sure she is alright. She's praying with someone at their house. Of course. Typical mom. I love her. Just have to make sure, you know. Make sure she's safe. :)
I had a grand day today. No school due to a holiday. Whoop whoop. So I went walking this morning, whilst listening to, yes, you guessed it, my audiobook. Then I went and babysat one of the girls from my class. Super fun! Just me and her, playing all day. Roller skating, playing Doc McStuffins, playing dolls, eating pancakes and strawberries, reading books, having a picnic, hanging out at a campfire, and so much more. Yes, I had a great day. Then I hung out with my friend at a coffee shop, then finally got to see her new home. Exciting! Midweek was great. Everyone back together again. Fun times. Some men shared about what they took out of their six week series on Authentic Manhood. That was awesome. I love hearing people share about they've learned and what's impacted themselves the most. I'm nosy like that. Haha, just kidding. Talking, dancing, youngin' fun.
Exercise
Walking w/ two 5 lb weights (45 min)
James 4:10 NIV
"Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up"
Ben Rector is my music love this week. I love his music. His lyrics. His voice. It's just good for my soul. Soothing. Calm. Oh so lovely. Here's one of my favorites.
We made Banana Muffins today. They are one of my favorite things to bake. It's definitely the thing I bake most often. We always find ourselves with overripe/browning bananas. Some people like to eat bananas like that. I am not one of those people. So what do I do? I make Banana Muffins! They are so deliciously tasty. The perfect way to not waste bananas.
You know I love reading. I also love listening to audiobooks. Especially when they are read with such emotion and I can just close my eyes, listen, and imagine I'm there. That's one thing I really love about audiobooks. I can close my eyes and be fully consumed. When you watch a movie, you see what you are shown. When you read a book, you get to create the images in your mind as you read. When you listen to an audiobook, you create the images in your mind while having the emotion and diction of the words come through another's voice. It's like watching a movie, but better, because you get to "see" what you want. Visualize it the way you see it. I am not sure if you are able to comprehend anything I am babbling about. But I understand what I'm saying. Haha. I also love audiobooks because I can listen to them in the car, when I'm doing dishes, when I'm running errands, when I'm waiting in the dentist's office, when I'm lying in bed at night in the dark before I go to sleep, or when I go running/walking (which I did today by the way.) It's on my phone, so I always have it with me. It's perfect! I borrow them through the library, and they show up on my phone through OverDrive. I heart technology.
The current audiobook I am listening to and absolutely loving is Pandemonium by Lauren Oliver. I adore Sarah Drew's voice. Her narration draws me in and I can't stop. She speaks with passion and fire. Which is perfect. I read Delirium (the first book of the trilogy) a while back. But listening to Pandemonium (the second book of the trilogy) now makes me want to listen to the audiobook of Delirium. I did that with The Hunger Games trilogy. I read them as each of them came out. But right before the movie came out, I decided I wanted a refresher. So I audiobooked that business! Which was very very fun. Oh, I love audiobooks.
Oh! Oh! Oh! Stolen by Lucy Christopher! The audiobook! Narrated by Emily Gray! Iloveloveloveit! You know how I feel about accents. Emily Gray is a-ma-zing. Gemma has a British accent, and Ty has an Australian accent. Swoon. Go listen to it if you can. It's a crazy story. But I couldn't get enough. That's another thing I love about audiobooks. Accents! I can hear it perfectly in my head. Reading it, I may accidentally put the wrong accent on it. But if it's an audiobook, I can hear it! Here's the cover of Stolen, and a couple quotes from the book.
Before I fall too fast Kiss me quick but make it last So I can see how badly this will hurt me when you say goodbye
Keep it sweet, keep it slow Let the future pass and don't let go But tonight I could fall too soon into this beautiful moonlight
But you're so hypnotizing You've got me laughing while I sing You've got me smiling in my sleep And I can see this unraveling Your love is where I'm falling But please don't catch me...
See this heart won't settle down Like a child running scared from a clown I'm terrified of what you do My stomach screams just when I look at you
Run far away so I can breathe Even though you're far from suffocating me I can't set my hopes too high 'Cause every "Hello" ends with a "Goodbye"
But you're so hypnotizing You've got me laughing while I sing You've got me smiling in my sleep And I can see this unraveling Your love is where I'm falling But please don't catch me...
So now you see why I'm scared I can't open up my heart without a care But here I go, It's what I feel And for the first time in my life I know it's real
But you're so hypnotizing You've got me laughing while I sing You've got me smiling in my sleep And I can see this unraveling Your love is where I'm falling So please don't catch me
If this is love please don't break me I'm giving up so just catch me
Funny still from tonight's episode of New Girl. I had to take a picture of it with my phone and post it here. Classic Nick Miller. :)
Our preschool, like most places, has rules. Our four basic rules are: Be Safe. Be Kind. Use Words. Take Care of Property. We have a song that goes along with it. I sing it with the children daily. Especially when they fail to follow one of these rules. You know, to make sure they do remember them. Ask them how they weren't following the rule(s) and what they could do differently. Rules are set to make sure that the children all feel safe and behave accordingly. Rules allow the children to know what is expected of them. To instill good values that they may carry on with them in their later years. But sometimes, children just don't listen. It's one of the facts of life. They don't listen. They get hurt. They hurt others. They hurt other things. Sometimes we have repeat offenders, who continue to do the same thing over and over no matter how many times they are told not to, or told to do something else. Sometimes I find myself thinking, Can't you see that I care about you? Can't you see that I just want you to be safe? Can't you see that I only want the best for you? I don't give you these rules to make you miserable, but on the contrary, so that you will be happy. So that you may learn and grow and thrive.
And then it hits me! This must be how God feels when I don't follow His rules. I read my bible. I know what his commands are. And yet, I often break them. I fall short. I misbehave in the eyes of God. I hurt myself. I hurt others. I hurt Him. God must be thinking, Can't you see that I care about you? Can't you see that I just want you to be safe? Can't you see that I only want the best for you? I don't give you these rules to make you miserable, but on the contrary, so that you will be happy. So that you may learn and grow and thrive. God, thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for Your gentle guidance. Thank you for Your continual unconditional love. Thank you for putting up with my childish, disobedient ways and never letting me go. Thank you for Your commands that were created to keep me safe and happy. I am thankful to be Your child.
Matthew 22:36-39 NIV "'Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?' Jesus replied: 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'"
I saw a vibrant double rainbow as I was driving home today. Brilliantly contrasted against the sleeting rain and gray clouded sky. I love rainbows. God is saying, "I love you Kiko. Here's something beautiful I made for you today." Rainbows fill my heart with warmth and assurance. I see rainbows practically everyday. I am blessed. I know it.
I took my sister to get her haircut. All she cut were bangs. She says they are too short. And was being a little grumpy about it. But I offered to flat iron her hair for her and she perked up as bit. After the straightening, you can really see her bangs. I like them! I told her as much. They suit her face. I would show you a picture, but I don't think she wants paparazzi right now.
Listening to Phillip Phillips Station on Pandora. Current song playing is I Won't Give Up - Jason Mraz. I love this song. Here you go, some ear dessert. You're welcome.
When I look into your eyes It's like watching the night sky Or a beautiful sunrise Well, there's so much they hold And just like them old stars I see that you've come so far To be right where you are How old is your soul?
Well, I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up
And when you're needing your space To do some navigating I'll be here patiently waiting To see what you find
'Cause even the stars they burn Some even fall to the earth We've got a lot to learn God knows we're worth it No, I won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am
I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up, still looking up.
Well, I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up) God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved) We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved) God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)
I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up