Excelsior: Day 46

It's that time of the week again. Library time! I got ump-teen books today. Most of them for Kaleo. Due to the fact that I created a monster and she finishes books like a racehorse now. But I did get some for me, of course. When I got home I went walking for about an hour, whilst doing arm exercises with weights. I walked on the beach for a cool down. There's some pictures down below. I watched Silver Linings Playbook with my sister tonight. Ooh, I liked that movie. I love Jennifer Lawrence. She's amazing.

Food Intake
Lucky Charms
Milk
Animal Crackers
Water
Pizza
Carrots
Chicken Sandwich
Orange
Water
Mini Chips Ahoy
Milk
Life Cereal
Cheese and Crackers

Exercise
Walking with two 5lb weights (60 min)

That right there was my favorite line.

Teehee.

iHeartRADIO: Day 45

I have juice dribbling down my chin and fingers from the juicy orange I am currently consuming. Yummmmm...

Hey You-know-who-you-are, I missed you at work today. I greatly look forward to seeing you tomorrow. Yay hey! And thank you so very much for reading by blogs. The only one who reads my blogs. Every. Single. One. of them. Thank you. I makes me happy. I love you!

Another thing I miss about Ohio are the radio stations. I am currently listening to iHeartRADIO on my phone. Akron 98.1 WKDD. One of my favorite stations. I love this app! :)

Ooh! My song just came on! Ho Hey! :) See... I love iHeartRADIO. Ha, I heart iHeartRADIO.

"I belong with you.

You belong with me.

You're my sweetheart."

Food Intake
Apple
Granola Bar
Animal Crackers
Water
Cheese and Crackers
Pizza
Water
Graham Crackers
Milk
Chicken Noodle Soup w/ Cheese
Orange

Exercise
None

Hula Performance: Day 44

Church! HOPE. There's hope for everyone. FORGIVE. Everyone can be forgiven. LOVE. Everyone can be loved. I can't do it on my own. The Merrie Monarch winners performed at service today. Awesome Chinky! Beautiful. Ohana group lunch after service. Yum. Yum.

My gym from Ohio called me today offering me a complimentary day pass. I sadly told them I don't live there anymore, otherwise I would love it. Actually, I would still be a member there had I not left. I miss my gym. I really miss it. It was the best. Lifetime Fitness. Oh I miss it so bad! So bad!

Movies with mom and Gayle. The Big Wedding. Pretty funny. I was laughing a lot.

Currently singing Elvis Presley's Burning Love...

My fingers hurt.

Food Intake
Fried Rice
Steak
Cornbread

BBQ Chicken Salad
Muddy Buddies
Chocolate Chip Cookies
McD's Ice Cream Cone

Exercise
None

Someone to Talk to: Day 43

My sister and I spent the entire morning reading books. Her on her bed. Me on the couch. Reading. Laughing. With the heart of the day swirling around us. Fans set to the highest setting. Not enough. Not caring too much. Because we were reading. Off in another world.

When it got too hot, we decided to head to the beach. Barefoot I walked. Sunny day. Cold water. Feeling good. Kaleo and I talked about the books we've been reading. TV shows we watch. I love having someone who is reading the same books as I am. I love talking about books. So to have someone who has actually read them, and we can have discussions and such is very fun for me. I love it. Someone to talk to. It's one of my favorite parts of reading. Being able to discuss each other's likes and dislikes. How we loved the ending. How we wished it ended differently. Falling in love with fictional characters. Joyful bliss. And love.

Then I did some guitar playing and singing. Undermine. So possibly I will have a new video up on YouTube soon.

Had a girls night with my friends. Did a follow up bible study, then went up Diamond Head and looked at the beautiful island in the night. Gorgeous. And of course. My favorite part of girls night. Girl talk! :)

Food Intake
Cheese and Crackers
Chicken Pot Pie
Smoothie
(Other stuff)

Exercise
None

Undermine: Day 42

So as you may have noticed, I haven't been doing a great job of keeping track of my food and such. But it's because. Um. I don't know. I'm human?

Food Intake
(food)

Exercise
None

You know how I mentioned I've been watching Nashville? Well, I'm in love with the song Undermine. It was first seen in the second episode, and I fell in love when she sang, "It's all talk, talk, talk, talking in the wind. It only slows you down when you start listening." So I YouTubed it and found out that it's Kacey Musgraves' song. And it's been on replay. This is it. Right down there. Watch it :)

Here's the clip from the episode it first appeared in.

Where I fell in love.

Singing it all day. ALL DAY. Did cups to it. Playin' it on guitar. Love it.

5LL: Day 41

Been listening to an audiobook on my phone called The 5 Love Languages of Teenagers: The Secret to Loving Teens Effectively by Gary Chapman. I've been wanting to work on my relationship with my sisters and I figured it couldn't hurt to listen to this. It's been very helpful and though-provoking. It's also making me scared for when my children (future children) are teenagers. Scary. Haha

Food Intake
Granola Bar
Water
Graham Crackers
Milk
Rice, Chicken, Cheese
Chips and Dip
Apple
Orange
Macaroni Grill Leftovers
Almonds

Exercise
Walking 30 min
Washing with two 5lb weights 30 min

This is the cover.

Nashville: Day 40

Just started watching Nashville. I only saw videos on YouTube of Lennon and Maisy singing on it, and recently I've been extra-loving of Lennon and Maisy. They are amazing. And it because of them that I have started watching Nashville. I'm excited to see it evolve and watch their performances :)

Food Intake
(lots of stuff)

Exercise
None

Love them. So good!

Books and Possibilities: Day 39

I finished two books yesterday. One of them being The Help by Kathryn Stockett, which I will probably do a separate post about because I loved it so much. Today I went to the library to get even more books. I love books. sigh.

My sister has been reading tons of books lately as well. I pick up a bunch from the library I've read and think she'll love. She reads them. And yes, loves them. She's becoming like me. In my need to read. It's pretty awesome. She even started logging the books she reads. Not in the crazy obsessive way that I do it (in my planner, with dates and times and places,) obviously, but just writing them down on a piece of paper. Next I have to work on my youngest sister. She is so not a reader. But hey. Anything is possible right.

Food Intake
(lots of things)

Exercise
None

Going Away: Day 38

Home from Bevon's going away party. I am so sad that he is moving. But I know that this is going to be awesome for him. We had dinner at Macaroni Grill. I think that was my first time ever eating there. It was delicious. Yum. Yum.

Food Intake
Granola Bar
Cheese and Crackers
Water
Pizza
Muddy Buddys
Animal Crackers
Water
Macaroni Grill - Mushroom Ravioli, Chicken Under a Brick, Spinach
McD's - Ice Cream Cone, Blueberry Pie

Exercise
None

Oblivion: Day 37

Oblivion. The state of being unaware or unconscious of what is happening. The state of being forgotten, esp. by the public. [Google definition.]

After church, we went to lunch and the movies. Oblivion. Looking at that definition, I think, yes, that's exactly what's going on in that movie. He is most certainly in a state of being unaware or unconscious of what is happening... and then some. I quite liked that movie. I'll admit I was a bit confused in the beginning. But I understood everything by the end of it. Such an interesting concept for sure.

Food Intake
Granola Bars
Water
Dave 'n Busters - Bar Burgers and Fries
Vanilla Dibbs
Muddy Buddys
Water
Chicken Sandwich
Mozzarella Cheese Sticks
Fudge Stripe Cookies

Exercise
None

Women's Day: Day 36

Yay! Yay! Yay! Today was Women's Day! It was so much fun. It was the best Women's Day ever! :) Ooh, and I love the photo booth. Everything was so beautiful. Pictures below...

Right now, I'm playing my guitar and singing some songs. And blogging of course. Duh.

Food Intake
Fruit
Eggs
Bacon
Hash Browns
Water
Mini Chocolate Cupcake
Zippy's - Chili w/ Rice and Cheese, Fries, Korean Fried Chicken
Nestle Tollhouse Ice Cream Sandwich
Chicken Pot Pie
Doritos

Exercise
None

Beautiful centerpieces made with tissue paper

Decorations

The stage

Program

Cute favor!

Breakfast fruit and mini cupcakes

I won two prizes!

Me :)

Me and my sister, Kaleo!

She's wearing my dress :)

Relay for Life: Day 35

Relay for Life. Home from the walk. Such a great cause. Goodnight.

Food Intake
Sweet & Salty Peanut Granola Bar
Banana
Water
Pizza
Animal Crackers
Brownies
Water
Milk
Banana Muffins

Exercise
Walking 20 min

Home Library: Day 34

Happy happy. Joy Joy. Don't Stop Believing! Currently watching Glee. The newest episode. Rachel Berry is singing Don't Stop Believing. Oh memories. I did my hot yoga tonight. With Jenn! Yay hey! Then I went to the library, which you all know is one of my most favorite places ever. And I got LOADS of books. Teehee. Even though I already have a lot that I'm reading and a lot on my "to-read" shelf. I just like having my own little library in my room. Where I can go to and pick whichever book I want to read. Choices. It's about having choices. And I like having LOTS of choices. Yeah son!

Food Intake
Banana
Sweet & Salty Nut Granola Bar
Water
Brookie
Animal Crackers
Reese's Pieces
Water
Panda Express Leftovers
Pizza
Water
Doritos
Chicken Katsu with Rice
Chicken Pot Pie
Water
Sweet & Salty Nut Granola Bar

Exercise
Hot Vinyasa Flow (75 min)

Yum yum!

Multiplicity Reading: Day 33

I had a fun day at work today. Started Mother's Day gifts with the kids. You know, I've been like, really happy lately. Like, really happy. I don't know exactly what's causing it, but I'm happy about it. Haha. Awkward came back last night! Yay hey! I'm currently reading four different books. Multiplicity reading! Not a real term, obviously. But it's fun to say! Reading more than one book at a time (especially four) is crazy. I know. I always thought it was a weird thing to do. But now that I'm doing it myself, I am finding it fun. I love reading. I love reading things that I love to read about. Make sense? Idk. Grrahhahaha! And each book is completely different from the others. Oh, and one of those books is an ebook on my phone. Haha. Really gettin' wit the times. So if ever I'm on the go, and I don't have a book with me, oh wait, I do! Teehee.

Food Intake
Banana
Sweet & Salty Nut Granola Bar
Water
Turkey Sandwich
Pizza
Water
Chicken Katsu
Meat Jun
Rice
Reese's Pieces

Exercise
None

This is what I'm reading on my phone. Lindy's Diary. It's only available as an ebook, so it's perfect. And I'm borrowing it from the library... double yay! It's short and sweet. Perfect for my first ebook ever. Yeah, I really don't believe I have ever read an ebook. Only real books. With real book smells. And real pages to turn. I do love books...

Because I Am Furniture

Because I Am Furniture by Thalia Chaltas.

It took me about two and a half hours to finish this book. I devoured every single page. I couldn't put it down. And I didn't want to.

Here's the book description written on the book's cover flap:

ANKE'S FATHER IS ABUSIVE. But not to her. He attacks her brother and sister, but she is ignored, forced to be an invisible witness in a house of horrors. Believing she isn't worthy of even the worst kind of attention, Anke feels about as significant as the living room sofa. Until she makes the volleyball team at school. In a sport where you have to yell "Mine!" to play the ball, Anke learns for the first time how to make herself heard. As her confidence on the court builds, she finds a voice she didn't know existed. And it's not long before she realizes that if she can make people hear her while she's playing volleyball, then maybe she can be heard at home, too. 

     Author Thalia Chaltas leads you straight to the heart of Anke's darkly complicated world in this devastatingly powerful novel in poems.

SPOILER ALERT! Sort of. Maybe. So go read the book :)
I have way too many thoughts running through my mind right now. They are racing a mile a minute due to the amazing-ness of this book and the rapidity of which I finished it. I love Anke. (Pronounced Ahn-Keh.) Her journey is incredible. Through the pain, she finds her own strength. And voice.

This is the very first page. And I was hooked...

This is one of my favorite parts of this book. Anke is ready. To truly speak up. Here she's talking to her sister, Yaicha.

"Every day,
every day he rips you open,
chips off pieces week by week,
till a few years from now you are not even a 
   mouthful of sawdust.
A drawn-out killing.
Well, I'm tired of all of us doing nothing.
He has to be stopped."

"Nobody can stop him."

"Nobody can stop him?
Good.
To him I have always been
Nobody."

And I LOVE this. Oh, her words! Her descriptive, beautiful words!

Staring into the starred darkness
makes me feel
stronger,
a simple truth.

With all the
dizzy galaxies
           hot gases
                     dust at the speed of light
                              neutrinos running through
                                  everything,

no matter how powerful someone is
           here on Earth
they are just as small as me
to the vast greatness of
outer
space.            

Cups: Day 32

Okay. That video down below is amazeballs. I love it so much. Just watch it. Now!

Food Intake
Blueberry Bagel with Butter
Bread and Butter
Fudge Stripes Cookies
Panda Express- Leftovers
Pizza
Chips and Dip

Exercise
None

LOVE!!!

The Ivy: Day 31

Last night (or more like this morning actually, since it was after midnight...) I finished reading the fourth (and I believe final) book of The Ivy book series. I loved it. Perfect ending. Just so good. Callie and Gregory. Makes me smile :) I borrowed all four books from the library. I LOVE LIBRARIES!! The books were written by Lauren Kunze with Rina Onur.

Here's a picture of all of the books.

On my kitchen counter.

Pretty, right?

Food Intake
Fudge Stripes Cookies
Hamantaschen
Chicken Pot Pie
Panda Express - Leftovers [Chow Mein, Mushroom Chicken, Orange Chicken]

Exercise
None

Driving home...

Superheroes: Day 30

Church and a girls' day. Very fun! MTV Movie Awards were on tonight as well. O Rebel Wilson, sometimes you take it a little too far. But I guess it's because you can. Avengers won best movie of the year. So down below are a few of my drawings of various superheroes that I made last night. Teehee.

Food Intake
Chili's - Chicken Enchilada Soup and House Salad with Ranch Dressing
Bunt Cake
Panda Express - Leftovers [Chow Mein, Mushroom Chicken]
Fudge Stripes Cookies

Exercise
None

Tissue Paper Project: Day 29

Spent the day helping to make these beautiful things :) So cool. So fun. Great centerpiece idea. Women's day is going to be beautiful. Then I went to the library with me mum. Watched Hanna at home with my sister. Saoirse Ronan. She's an excellent actress. Hanna's got skills.

Food Intake
Morning Brew - [1/2 Ham Panini, Chips, 1/2 Havarti Cheese & Spinach Omelet]
McD's Ice Cream Cone
KFC French Fries
Hamantaschen
Water
Graham Crackers
1% Milk
Life Cereal
Elbow Macaroni, Alfredo Sauce, Cheddar Cheese

Exercise
None

My Future...???

So basically, I have been having loads of thoughts lately. About my life. About my dreams. About my future. Things I want to do. Things I want to accomplish. Who I want to be. As you know, (due to the fact that I have said it time and time again) I want to be a mom. But that is not happening in my near future. So until I reach that point in my life - where I meet the man of my dreams who I am will spend the rest of my life with, get married, have kids, and live happily ever after - I need to live my single, adult life to the fullest. Which at times can be a little frustrating and confusing.

These are a few things about me. General points I'd like to address that I hope to use in my future life path.

1. I love creating. I love drawing, photography, recording videos, scrapbooking, editing (pictures, videos, scrapbooks, etc,) writing, baking, cooking, dancing, singing, guitar playing, writing songs, blogging (if that counts as creating,) making websites, and the list goes on.
2. I love loving. And I wish that everyone did to. And showed it. To everyone. I have a passion against bullying of any kind. When I hear stories about anyone getting bullied, my heart goes out to them. I instantly wish I could stop it. I wish that I could do something to make a difference. Be the change. Make people understand that it's not right. It's never okay to be cruel and treat people that way. No matter what. It hurts. I know first hand how much it hurts. And I want to do something about it. Not just talk about wanting to do something. But actually do something. But I don't exactly know how to go about that.
3. I want to help people. Truly help people. Be involved in the betterment of individual lives. I want to serve others. I want to give to those who have nothing. I want to make others happy. Hug them. Make them smile. Be a light.
4. I want to incorporate the truth. The word of God. His love. In whatever way that I can. In whatever way possible.
5. I want to love what I do. And while I know that many people hate their jobs, and get stuck doing it day in and day out just for the money, or whatever other reasons, I don't want that to be me. I want to be excited to be doing what I am doing. Because I know that it is possible. Because I am currently doing just that. And have been since I graduated high school.

So if there is anyone out there who can help me figure out how to go about using these points to understand what I want to do and how to do it, please feel free to leave it in the comment section below.

I thought I'd list a few qualities of mine that often causes me to fail. Knowing and admitting your faults is the first step to recovery as they say.

1. I can be easily distracted and forget my focus.
2. I procrastinate.
3. I am a perfectionist with mild, undiagnosed OCD.
4. I tend to be self-depreciating and often think I'm not (and never will be) "good enough."
5. I am unsure. Of myself. Of what I think. Of what I want.

I will try to work on these. Now that I have confessed them, I can change, right?

While we are making list after list, I figured, one more couldn't hurt. Here is a list of some things I want to do in my lifetime.

1. Visit a third world country and serve the needy.
2. Help at least one person to realize how special and amazing they are.
3. Teach others about God's love.
4. Travel and experience foreign cultures. [I will make it to Paris and London one day.]
5. Have children of my own.

My current desktop background.

A nice daily reminder of my dreams.

:)

Well, I hope your life is more decisive and focused than mine! Have a great day and thanks for stopping by!

Draw My Life: Day 28

So I just watched a ton of "Draw My Life" videos on YouTube. Which has inspired me to want to make my own. For fun. So I shall possibly be doing that quite soon. But knowing me and my professional procrastination, it might be later rather than sooner. But yeah!

Yeah, I've been having major munchies madness attacks recently. But I plan on being better tomorrow.

Food Intake
Cookies...
Tortilla with Cheese
Hamantaschen
Graham Crackers
Milk
Panda Express - Leftovers (Chow Mein, Mushroom Chicken)
McD's Ice Cream Cone
Water

Exercise
None

I like this one. A lot...

Hamantaschen: Day 27

Sorry I'm not sorry.

I made loads of hamantaschen today. For tommorw. But I ate some. Cuz they are delicious. Yeah...

Food Intake
Pizza
Hamantaschen
Pizza
Hamantaschen
Pizza
Hamantaschen
...
(haha sry)

Exercise
None

Quick: Day 26

Working on something right now. Just posting this quickly so I can get back to it.

Food Intake
Blueberry Bagel w/ Butter
Pizza
Water
Bread and Butter
Graham Crackers
Milk
Panda Express - Plate (Chow Mein, Orange Chicken, Mushroom Chicken)
McD's Ice Cream Cone

Exercise
None

Reading: Day 25

.  .  .  R  e  a  d  i  n  g  .  .  .

Food Intake
Gogurt
Drink (1% Milk, Peanut Butter, Banana, Ice)
Oatmeal w/ Sugar
Applesauce
Drink (1% Milk, Peanut Butter, Banana, Ice)
McD's Ice Cream Cone
PB&J
Tuna Sandwich
Pizza

Exercise
None

Family: Day 24

Back on the liquid diet out of fear of my BIG hole. Don't wanna chance it. No. No. No. Squirting with salt water.

Cheaper by the Dozen. :) Just watched that movie. So cute. I love it. I've been thinking lately. About all of the shows, movies, games, life of my childhood and such. And I was like, I wanna watch Cheaper by the Dozen. So I did. This movie totally makes me want tons of kids. Totally. Maybe not twelve... but still a lot. I love kids. Whenever I'd get asked the question, "What do you want to be when you grow up," the first thing that always came to my mind was "a mom." A mom. That's what I long to be. So fun. So cute. Family. I love family. :)

Food Intake
Gogurt
Water
Liliha Coco Puffs (just the pudding and chantilly)
Gogurt
Applesauce
Peanut Butter
Mashed Banana
Smoothie (Frozen Strawberries, Peanut Butter, 2 Bananas, 1% Milk)

Exercise
None

Big 'Ol Hole: Day 23

I think my stitches melted. But my whole looks cavernous and huge. It's scary and giving me a headache. I don't want anything to get stuck inside of it. That could cause it to heal badly, or get infected. Gosh. Gross. So I used my squirter thing for the first time. It's so cool. The squirter that is. Not that big 'ol hole. Deffo not that. I'm still scared of the possibility that food might get stuck in there. Grraahh!

Food Intake
Club Sandwhich on Croissant
Water
Cheese
McD's Ice Cream Cone
(More, I forget what)

Exercise
None

Awkward.: Day 22

Saturday. Shows. Sleep. Pain. Drowsy. Awkward. Team Jenna. I love how her bangs are. Today. First day I ever watched Awkward. Thanks a lot sisters for telling me about this show. Not! I guess being in Ohio, I didn't watch a lot of MTV. Make that any MTV. So when I moved down here I got into Teen Wolf and watched all those episodes online. And today, that's what happened with Awkward. I luuhh dat show. Seriously. Season three will be here next week Tuesday! Hooooray!

Food Intake
Naan
Butter
Sabra Roasted Pine Nut Hummus
Nutter Butter Bites
Tortillas
Water
Cheese

Exercise
None

Fireworks and City Lights: Day 21

Went to the dentist today so they could check how my mouth is doing/healing. They said it's healing well, no swelling. All that good stuff. Yay. But I am still getting pains. But that's normal.

I went out with some friends. We got some food, went to Alamoana park to eat, and watched the fireworks. The we got some shakes from Jack's and looked out over the city at Tantalus. I love pretty lights :) Fun day/night was had by me.

Food Intake
Water
Gogurt
Reese's Egg
Graham Crackers
Fat Free Milk
Life Cereal
Tortilla
Sliced Cheese
Water
Grilled Cheese
French Fries
Vanilla Milkshake

Exercise
None

Manapua: Day 20

Chewing with my front teeth is really hard. But I can kind of chew with my left, near-front teeth. V e r y  s l o w l y . . .   And it kinda takes the fun out of eating. Eating so slow. But hey.

So as you can tell, I haven't been so focused on the whole "losing weight" aspect of my weight loss journey due to the pain and inability to chew/eat. So yeah. And I can't exercise because too much movement hurts my teeth and mouth/face area.

Food Intake
Reese's Egg
Water
Graham Crackers
Fat Free Milk
Water
Oatmeal w/ Sugar
KFC Mashed Potatoes
4 Stick Cheese
Papa John's Garlic Butter
1/2 Manapua
1 Pork Hash
Water
McD's Plain Sundae
2 Reese's Eggs

Exercise
None

I wish I had some of these... and could eat them.

Been really missing these recently, randomly.

These are one of my most-favorite-favorites :)

* s i g h

Drink Away the Pain: Day 19

Woke up with terrible pain in my mouth. My teeth. Hurt. Not even where the teeth got pulled, but the teeth that are still in my mouth. So it's weird and confusing. And painful. Very painful.
Still can't chew. But I can dip my Graham crackers into milk, then suck and swallow.

Worst pain ever. Crying. Mom made me a drink. Thanks mom. Moms always know what to do to make you feel better :)

Food Intake
Water
Gogurt
Water
Matzo Ball Soup
Fat Free Milk
Graham Crackers
Animal Crackers
Stick Cheese
Gogurt
Water
Banana
Peanut Butter
Oatmeal w/ Sugar
Jolly Rancher Drink

Exercise
None

Pain: Day 18

Mouth. Pain.
Head. Pain.

Food Intake
Water
Banana
Gogurts
Graham Crackers
Fat Free Milk
Safeway Broccoli Cheese Soup w/ Stick Cheese
Water
Gogurts
Ice Cream
Campbell's Broccoli Cheese Soup
Slice Cheese

Exercise
None

It's April: Day 17

No work today. Just me, at home, chillin'. Reading. Watching a movie. Library. Criminal Minds on TV. I still can't eat food food. Can't chew. This sucks. Seriously. But it is what it is. I can't wait to eat a cracker. Haha. Lame. I can't chew. It hurts my teeth :(

Food Intake
Safeway Broccoli Cheese Soup
Ice Cream
Water
Smoothie - [2% Milk, Banana, Frozen Strawberries, Peanut Butter]
2 Reese's Eggs
Safeway Broccoli Cheese Soup
Campbell's Cream of Mushroom Soup

Exercise
None